I had a dream last night. I don’t remember many details, but I remember the emotions- I was passionate in trying to express to somebody the power and knowledge and light that can come through the spirit if we just pray and work for it.
I’ve had periods of my life where I felt a true companionship of the spirit and other periods where I didn’t. Looking back, the contrast in how I thought and felt in those different periods is pretty striking. The best way I can describe the difference is light.
When I am living in a way that the spirit can be my companion, I feel light inside- in my heart, in my mind, in my spirit. I can see more clearly the things I need to be doing as well as see the people around me and any needs that I may be able to fill. I can see the things in myself that I need to change- not in an overwhelming, dark, dreary, hopeless way, but with a clear, quick understanding of what needs to be different. I view others with more charity, giving them the benefit of the doubt, and understand that they are doing the best that they know how. I can understand things I’m learning on a different and more complex level and learn things in symbols and metaphors through the spirit as I’m doing simple everyday tasks. I can quickly discern between truth and error, honesty and dishonesty.
When I am not living in a way that makes it possible for the spirit to be my companion, the light leaves and it’s hard to remember what it was like to have the light. I don’t even realize how much I’m unable to see and understand, until the light comes back on!
When I have it, I wish everybody had it!