“Reason and record what you learn about the Divine Identity you are seeking, as well as that which is lost through this effort and defining synonyms.”
Identity includes what makes you unique and different from anyone else. Identity is like your fingerprint and like a snowflake; it’s what makes you different from anyone else. The individuality and distinctiveness that separates you from others but also what helps you make a contribution that no one else can make. You are the only you in the universe. You are the only one who can do exactly what you can do and if you don’t do it then no one will. Character and personality can be influenced and changed by experiences and learning. But divine identity is more permanent. Of course you can change and hopefully will be become more perfect, but your divine identity is who you were before and who you are destined to become for eternity. This reminded me of the quote by Elder Donald L. Hallstrom: “In today’s world, no matter where we live and no matter what our circumstances are, it is essential that our preeminent identity is as a child of God. Knowing that will allow our faith to flourish, will motivate our continual repentance, and will provide the strength to “be steadfast and immovable” throughout our mortal journey” (I Am a Child of God, April 2016).
I am searching for my unique and divine self, the one that doesn’t change depending on my current calling, the changing needs of my family, or burdens I am called upon to carry. I am searching for that eternal essence that makes me unique and different from those around me and will rise with me into the eternities. I am searching for the truth under all the facades that I put up to protect myself and be able to function in this lost and fallen world without drawing too much attention to myself.
I saw her once in a mirror. I was at a conference; I had been quiet without my family for a few days and had been seeking myself. One day as I came off an elevator there was a giant mirror with a vase of flowers on a small table. Somehow the flowers called me to them and I went to enjoy the quiet beauty without any purpose but just joy in the beauty. Suddenly I looked in the mirror and it wasn’t me that looked back but this amazing valiant goddess that was powerful and strong. She was only there for a minute but I truly saw her and can recall to my mind what it felt like to recognize and yet not know someone so intimately.
I am seeking the mission and purpose that I was sent to this earth to accomplish. I am seeking the approval and “an actual knowledge that the course of life one is pursuing is acceptable to the Lord” (Bible Dictionary: Faith). I am seeking my spiritual gifts and talents and what I should be doing with them now that my children’s need for me is changing and giving me more time to pursue other seasons’ work. I am seeking a vision of myself and knowledge of my purpose at this time and season of life. I am seeking my new path and how to find joy and happiness in it.
President Nelson said “We need women who have the courage and vision of our Mother Eve.” What vision did Mother Eve have? Eve had vision of the purpose and eternal destiny of our families, vision that it was “better to suffer to learn wisdom” than to live in comfort and ease, vision to progress and seek God and overcome the adversary.
I am seeking for the influence and power that the Lord has for me. I am seeking President Nelson’s promise: “So today I plead with my sisters of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints to step forward! Take your rightful and needful place in your home, in your community, and in the kingdom of God—more than you ever have before. …And I promise you in the name of Jesus Christ that as you do so, the Holy Ghost will magnify your influence in an unprecedented way!” I want to have my influence magnified in righteous and happy ways. I want to impact this world and especially those I love to seek the saving power of Jesus Christ.
I am seeking the blessing further promised by President Nelson, “I…bless you to rise to your full stature, to fulfill the measure of your creation, as we walk arm in arm in this sacred work. Together we will help prepare the world for the Second Coming of the Lord.” I want to rise to my full stature as a divine daughter of God who loves me, and I desire to show Him my love for Him. I desire to fulfill the measure of my creation and to understand more fully what that means in this season of no more babies.
I am seeking this identity to fulfill this quest, “Without sure identity and priority, blessings that matter most are at the mercy of things that matter least.” Finding that which matters eternally and seeking to put aside the things of the world and things that matter least is my quest at this time. What is eternal and important? We are told that by small and simple things great things are brought to pass, so certainly the size of things will not always help me determine their importance.
Power is what I am seeking, super power and promised power. I had an amazing Relief society president who shared with me something that has impacted me for more than 10 years. She said, “I read the promises of having family home evening from a prophet of God and I determined that nothing was going to get in the way of our family getting those promised blessings.” There are so many promises of power, and I need to focus my quest for blessings on qualifying myself and my flock to receive these promises of power.
Elder Nelson challenges me by this statement, “Your identity includes gathering the elect from the four corners of the earth” (becoming true millennials). How am I meeting this challenge and what can I do to more fully share my testimony and witness to the world?